i want to blow my money unresponsibly on something like a tattoo or a crazy piercing or on some clothing apparel or on a massage or SOMETHING.
But i won't. *sigh.

Rest In Peace : { Adam Loving - 정동민 } 

There's so much I want to say yet words just don't form into sentences..
We miss you. Don't forget us. Be well.

-Em 

goodness it's been a while, hasn't it?
life & it's roller coaster. always xP
hoping to be back on track now.
dealing with myself better, controlling my munchies & negative habits.
gotta get in shape for summerr<33 ^^

-Em. 

happy. happy. happy.
i don't think i've actually been this... happy?
about my own life. about my own self.

i used to be happy with everyone around me,
I used to be happy with all the love from my loved ones,
but now, i'm happy because i love myself and i love my life.
i don't think this will every fade and i don't think it will ever end.
and now that i'm getting my own self straightened out,
i realize and see my friends in a new perspective,
i have much more respect to the ones closest to me
and i realize that some friends are kind of still stuck in life
just like how i was for the longest time...
and i wish i can help them... but i did this on my own
and it's not like they'd listen to me xP
but i'm proud of myself and i can say that i'm truly lucky to have the best of friends *&people in general*
around in my life. love love love love love.
thanks, life. thanks, me(:

<333Em. 

this is my personal blog. so i'm going to post down my personal thoughts. this is what's on my mind at this moment in time...

heartbroken... why did i feel like that..?
i hear the simple statement my best friend tells me & it's... "he wants nothing to do with you anymore"
for so many reasons can i say that the comment hit me hard in a hurtful manner,
but for so many reasons can i say that eventually that was something bound to be said..

but see, i was happy for him- he had a new chick. he's got a smile on his heart.
i accepted that i hurt him, i accepted that though we had something great, we chose our paths and we are where we are. 
i know he's a good guy. i know he deserves someone good. that much i know..

here's what else i know. that.. he's being played.
fckn bxtch from maryland thinks she can play with boys' hearts?
thinks she's something special?
if she gets anywhere near both of my friends(*ex) and hurts them in any way..
she's got another thing coming. i'm still young & drama always exists & i'm not afraid to be young & immature and lay shit down clear for this chick. 
i want to tell the kid so bad.. that he deserves something better than someone so twofaced.
but it's not my place.. it's not my business..
he wants nothing to do with me anymore.
& i hate it. i guess i really miss him. he was a best friend to me..</3












work & work & work.
but i love it. i'm going to save up. & i'm going to travel(:
ugh, mentally stressed, emotionally stressed, i hate this.
-em.